Nanay... I Will Miss You

                                 
Nanay Viring... that is my Nanay.

Nanay carrying me one new year, I was so scared of the fireworks

She has been suffering from lung cancer since a year ago.  Nalagpasan niya ang taning niya... hanggang April 8, 2008, ang Nanay ay kasama namin sa mundong ito.

I was asleep here at my QC home, when my dad called and told me, "Wala na ang Nanay, ... kaninang 6.15pm lang."

I didn't shed a tear.  I just sat on my bed, and told Nanay, "Nanay, masaya na kayo ngayon dahil tapos na paghihirap niyo sa karamdaman niyo... at hindi kayo nag-iisa, dahil kasama niyo na ngayon ang Tatay, ang 3 niyong anak na sina Tito Ronnie, Tito Etong at Tito Boy."

Now that I am uploading pictures of Nanay, and choosing the pictures from my Canon Folder (for my relatives offshore) ... sadness fills me.  Wala na ang Nanay.  Tears... tears...

                           

Nagpapasalamat ako at noong April 7, nasa tabi ko kayo, kinakantahan at nagdadasal hawak ang kamay ninyo at your bedside.  Nagpapasalamat ako na nakasama kita Nanay, hanggang sa mga huling sandali.

Nanay,

I will miss you.  I will miss your cooking.  Kayo ang nagturo sa akin na ang arroz caldo ay masarap.  Kayo ang may pinaka masarap na sinampalukang manok.  Kayo ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako matakaw, at mahilig sa pagkain.

I will miss your smile, your always being there... wala na ako mapagsumbungan kung ako ay inaway ng mommy o ng aking mga kapatid. Wala na akong iiyakan kapag may problema ako.  Wala na akong tatawagan kapag ako ay nahihirapan sa school.

I will miss your kindness, your love... although I know that your love lingers... iba parin na nakikita kita Nanay, handang haplusan ako, at ipagluto ako, at kwentuhan ako.

Sino kasama ko noong una akong ma-ospital noong bata, para operahan dahil sa appendicitis? Ang nanay.

Sino kasama ni Love-Love noong siya ay nanganak kay Neo? Ang nanay.

Sino ang handang magpautang at mag-abot ng pera kahit hindi ka humihingi? Ang nanay.

Sino ang tagapag-alala na 'wag magtanim ng galit sa taong kinasasamaan ng loob, at tagapag-paalala na pinagpapala ng Diyos ang nagpapatawad at nagpapasensya? Ang nanay.

Sino ang tagapagdasal nating lahat at malakas sa Diyos, at mga hinihiling natin ay natutupad? Ang nanay.

                           

Nanay, I can't speak for each and every apo, at anak...

                         

                                    

                         

                                  

                         


pero I can speak for myself, how you raised me, how you loved me, how you took care of me...

You never raised your voice, and even if you did as you claim, I never felt it... you just grind your teeth when you're angry.  You don't have the capacity to hurt anyone. 

When I was a kid, one of my best memories was my stay in Valenzuela, cooking and playing in your house.  And you are there, to guide me, to cook for me, to hold me -- when I was sick or when I am naughty.

Nanay, I know that heaven has access to the internet.  Free-of-Charge.  I know that you are able to read this.

I want to show to the whole world, how lucky we all are to have you as our Nanay.  So selfless... kahit minsan hindi 'nyo inisip ang sarili ninyo.. parati kami ang una.  And you have always been there for us -- anytime, no matter what. 

What you have shown me, I hope to pass it on to my children and to my children's children. 

                                             

                                             

                                 

                                 

                              

You cared for your 8 kids, you were a mom at the age of 16.  All your kids are bright and finished school.  You have a doctor son -- who is the best and the brightest pedia of Valenzuela and FEU, you have two lawyer children - who are smart, you have children CPA's -- one was a board topnotcher, the others have good jobs, you have an engineer son.  How could you possibly do all these.. raising all your kids to be good and loving parents?  And you were a mom at the age of 16... I myself, don't have the capacity to do that. 

You lived a full happy life nanay...

                                 
and your love lingers... even beyond death.

Wake : 564 Malanday Valenzuela, MM (along McArthur Highway)

Interment: 130pm, Valenzuela Memorial

In lieu of flowers, a Mass offering for Virginia Fernando will be much appreciated.

Photos of Nanay Through the Years:
http://naomicorpuz.multiply.com/photos/album/66/Nanay_Through_the_Years...